Thanks for sharing; I feel your rollercoaster of emotions in this ever complex environment. The thing I struggle with is the sheer amount of information out there regarding the markets means I struggle to know where to start. Forums, whitepapers, articles, comments and good old ICO's. Feel free to share some of your favourite sources to compound my issues.
Also you ask for a description for 'investing' - I’d liken it to gambling with monopoly money.
Have fun, but when the fun stops… re-invest!!!