活在阳光下的“孩子”☀ The child live in the sun

每一天早上起床之后的你都会和自己说什么话呢，今天又是阳光明媚的一天，美好的新生活又开始了、今天的我也要努力生活啊、要经常笑啊，笑起来的女孩子真好看、爱笑的你今天也一定会幸运，要加油哦。
可往往这一天的心情变化是什么呢，莫名的因为小事就发脾气，甚至崩溃大哭，绝望，觉得自己是全世界最不幸的人。为什么我的生活会变成这样子，为什么这世界上要有我这样的人存在。诸如此类的想法啊，就这样不断地出现在你的脑子里。它们就像挥之不去的野兽👽，侵蚀着你的思想，你的心，一次又一次地把你击倒，它们似乎很想看看你究竟什么时候才能站不起来，然后它们就会在那里，嘲讽你，哈哈大笑，笨蛋，这样就被击垮了。
我承认这就是现在的我，好像活得像个永远长不大的孩子，可孩子本该是无忧无虑的啊，而我呢，而我呢。这种感觉像什么，被无数的枷锁捆绑，无法挣脱，又像在迷宫里，一直走，一直走，却怎么也走不出去。挣脱不了就不挣脱了，走不出去就不走了。
如果要长大，第一步就是要学会与自己和解吧，放下过去的错，原谅所有的恶，疼爱身边的人。做一个这样的“孩子”，与自己和解，活在阳光下吧。☀

  Every day after getting up in the morning you will say what words to yourself, today is a sunny day, a good new life and began, today I also want to work hard ah, often laugh ah, laugh up the girl really good-looking, love to laugh you will be lucky today, to refueling oh.
  But often this day's mood change is what, inexplicable because of small things on the temper, even collapse crying, despair, feel that they are the world's most unfortunate people. Why would my life be like this? Why would someone like me exist in the world? Thoughts like this keep popping up in your head. They're like lingering beasts, eating away at your thoughts, your heart, knocking you down again and again, and they seem to want to see when you can't stand up, and then they're there, mocking you, laughing, stupid, and they're broken.
  I admit that this is now me, as if living like a child never grow up, but the child should be carefree ah, and I, and I. This feeling is like what, by countless shackles, unable to break free, like in the maze, has been walking, has been walking, but how also can't go out. If you can't break free, you can't break free. If you can't get out, you can't leave.
  If you want to grow up, the first step is to learn to make up with yourself, let go of the past mistakes, forgive all the evil, love the people around you. Be such a child, reconcile with yourself, and live in the sun. ☀