Great heartfelt post, thanks for making it. I'm also a believer that Gods spirit is being poured out tenfold in your home nation of the Phillipines at the minute and I hope it continues. You may be interested to follow 'Bless the Pastors' on Facebook https://www.facebook.com/pg/blessthepastors/about/?ref=page_internal They're a Catholic ministry in the Phillipines doing a lot of great work for the glory of Christ (I know you're overseas but there might be one near your family in the Phillipines). God bless!