Thanks @papa-pepper. I see genuine turnaround in your composure and I believe I'll have and experience that. Find that inner peace and be useful to myself and others likewise God-fearing. I have started talks with a local priest in my village here and he has gave me some materials and open door for me to go to him anytime I have a question beside the sessions we've agreed to meet each Thursday.

I believe one day I'll be able to say I haven't always been like this and there's a reason and all you guys will be part of the reason. Thanks.