God is very unbelievable!

I am just a simple woman with simple dreams in life. I only have few friends in life but only one best friend I treated and loved the most. Time, year had passed. She'd changed. She forgot me :(. We were neighbors but we never talked and see each other again. I don't know why. I am jealous whenever I saw her with other girls. I want her to approach me. I feel awkward whenever were together. Since then I never make friends, I may have friends but not that close.

Since she left me alone. I trusted no one. I ate alone. I walked alone and study alone. Until there's this man, he became part of my life and make me live again (charoot). My world rotates to him to the point that I don't want him seeing with other other ladies friends or not. I easily get jealous. I believe that what I am doing is wrong. I fight or battle every girl who chatted him with no reason. I feel so damn crazy :(. I am aware but I can't help it. :( sigh Who am I to blame , I am not perfect.

I thank God because even if I am like this, having a kind of somewhat bad attitude, you know? ahm paranoid thingy. I always ask God not to take him away from me instead He make him his instrument to make me change little by little.
God is so good. He never left me in times of doubt, disappointments and happiness. He has the BIG part of my life!.

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I love Jesus.