Me too. (I apologize for the length of my responses to you. My goal is to share clarity so that others may experience peace.)
Since I’ve had to dose so high with cannabis, I cannot remember what happens in my dream state (unless I take a tolerance break.)
The resistance released from my kundalini in December 2018.
It’s been a wild ride of both liberation and enlightenment.
I have learned to trust the Devine nature of the system and to fix the emotional trauma that my physical body has been subjected to.
It’s a whole process of reconciling how the physical body reacts in auto-pilot mode (mostly based on cultural programming) and emotional distortions versus what my higher self (who’s always accessing source energy) and as such, knows the way (for my body) to exist harmoniously in full power. (This is not unique to me...every soul’s higher self knows the way to guide their physical component).
In practical terms: if I engage in a self defeating action that impacts my physical body, it means that my higher self is showing me that I still have emotional shit to acknowledge and let go.
A perpetual work in progress.
Thank you for the opportunity to share. :)