What you need to do
***Fear of what the proper reaction will be if you ask yourself what you need to do.
The fitting reaction is: I don't have the foggiest thought.
Regardless, that is decisively why you MUST find. You're keeping up a key separation from the request since you know the proper reaction is you don't have the foggiest thought, anyway that is okay. Surrendering you don't know is radiantly fine. There's nothing out of order with it. You're way before an enormous measure of different people who make sense of how to quiet the voice inside that influences the request of "What to would I like to do?"
Okay, I came and read this blog. I think I understand what you are saying, but your English grammar and sentence structure make if difficult for me.
However, you seem to be talking in circles. But that too is okay.
It's your blog
Hint, you should go back, edit the image, delete the
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