Good read, I like your honesty man. Also, I have an idea what to do with your camping gear if you haven't decided and aren't going to use it. Go to your storage locker, take photos of the stuff, put it up on craigslist, and then use the money you make off of it to buy some steem power. The more SP you've got, the more your posts are going to make because the more attention people are going to pay to you. Plus the more you will get for curation rewards. Anyhow, just thought I'd throw the idea out there for you.