This isn't something I will ever grow out of.

Uhmm, maybe.

It’s who you are.

Maturity is accepting the fact that you are, as I sometimes consider myself, an introvert on steroids.

Anxiety is created by fear of ‘disclosure’…people ‘learning’ something that we’d rather them not know…but, they prolly already do…lol…

What are you ‘afraid’ others will learn about you…aka…what thought comes to mind that makes you anxious?

It feels a lot like a betrayal and stings every time,

Don’t take it personal. Humans are a bit ‘narcissistic’ whether they admit to it or not; and sometimes, just so overwhelmed by their own life issues that they tire of helping others, which is why people pay for a professional to listen to them.

May I suggest yoga…deep breathing…conversations with God (your Higher Power) as a healthy starting point?

Quitting isn’t an option. Anxiety is an enemy attack. It’s real; but, has to be kicked to the curb via self-prescribed mantras.

One of my favorites is:

I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHICH GIVES ME STRENGTH. (Philippians 4:13).

The higher the anxiety, the more I remind myself of this truth.

Last word from the Holy Spirit:

Since you're comfy in your own zone...why not start talking to the camera and upload to a YouTube channel...maybe even live stream...

You will find you're not alone; and, be a lot more filled than talking to people who simply 'don't get it'.

Who knows, maybe you'll hit a million subs, as anxiety is one of the most common experiences people encounter.

It's keeping it in 'control' that's most important.

Btw, your post would be a great transcript for your first upload. I'd love to know how it goes.

Remember, nothing beats a failure except someone who tries.

Of course, be sure to setup your paypal.me account. Don't hesitate to share your current financial plight.

Prayers that things will get better for you.

Best regards.

Peace.