Blog Update - Going back to Australia
Yes, it's true, I'm going back. I've hit a brick wall with my ability to keep going. My health is failing, my mental health is failing. I need to find stability. I've stopped making money so consistently on the streets since Copenhagen and this firey energy I once had that drove me through the years is now largely gone. I cannot go back to living on the streets or living in squats.
On the streets is a state of powerlessness. I want to achieve so much more than just write a blog read by half a dozen people and make occasional b-grade tracks which get put on the all consuming organism called soundcloud.
I will never stop my music. But I need to find a way to be stable. I need to find a way with the opportunities I was born with to gain a footing in society so I can really change things; standing up for the rights of the homeless and the refugees. There are so many parts of myself I need to give rights to. All these experiences I have gained through my life, I cannot ignore them. They have given me a great responsibility.
I cannot give these experiences the value they deserve by continuing to live as I am.
It feels like a repeat of last time I did this about 13 months ago. I really did think I could go again and just keep going. I'm only 34 now but I'm getting old. My mental and physical energies aren't so elastic. I'm finding myself facing a deeper despondency than I've ever faced before in my life if I keep going.
Something has to change, I cannot go on living like this. I must live a life that gives respect for all of my experiences; and respect for myself.
Thanks for coming with me on this journey. I will continue to blog and do music updates and podcasts and projects. Just I will find stability and do it from a place of security, because it is within my power to give myself that security.
Pray I can find a form of stability and a place in society that I will be satisfied with that gives respect to all of my experiences.
I'll be back in Fremantle on the 22nd of February.
Monty x
Wishing you the best, I hope you can find the stability you need <3
Thank you! Thanks for your support with my music on Steemit.
I hope you find what you are looking for Monty. Keep shining your light wherever you are
Thank you man, you and others are an inspiration who give me hope.
Your words are mutual brother
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Sad to hear... I haven't read you story, but it unfortunately is all to common.. People unable to follow their passion because of monetary issues... It really makes me so sad (being one of those as well...
If you don't find your place, or are looking for options, there's always room for you in the ecoVillage
It's not about money so much as it is about personal motivation. I've been living as a street musician for the most part of the last six years. I've lived vicariously for much longer than this.
It's time to change focus for me.
Hope you find what you are looking for, even if that means going back to Australia. I just listened to your latest song and loved it!
Me too, thanks for reading/listening and all the best!