My dear friend if you believe in God like you noticed there is one great hope you are for sure not alone. He is with you and now He is trying to show you how many people would like to spend the time with you. Oh !!! btw there is one more: this is still not the end of your life, remember life is full surprises. You never know what and when can something happen. Cheer up my friend. Greetings from Panama :-)))