Thank you @buttcoins!! This means a lot!! Yes it was real I have been there many times and all this has somehow bundled up inside an emotional rollercoaster and this time it all spilled out..Just a feeling though it might be just me in this untrue world and banned society..a rebel speaking it’s mind or a conscious human relating to the truths of human behavior?! Who knows?! Damn sure this virtual fucking badge means some shit and it downgraded my bitch depression to a level I don’t even fucking notice it...is it just self acknowledgement that leads to that?! Does it fucking matter?! Here in the blockchain is all about self and others..virtual family mental awareness..great to have you as a friend..thanks for sticking by even when I almost gave up bro!(or crypto bro hehe)