I don't do that for you.

Dear Haters,

I don't write on this blog for you.
I do it for me.
As selfish as you may think it is ---
thinking about YOU,
makes ME shut-down.

I create because I desire to create.
I create because its a really great outlet to express myself in the ways that I want to express myself.
so really, fuck you.
But, I also see right through your bullshit because I used to be you.
I used to be you.
I used to judge and sham other people all the time.
couldn't stop. Thought I was being helpful.
Do you know how much I care now?
Zero.
They will either figure their shit out
or they won't.
And that is that.

I don't need to prove myself to others.
I am what I am what I am -- to some extent I can't choose to be who I am.
I was made this way.
I like to express myself this way.
I am who I am who I am who I am.
and if you care who I am?

I am sure you do.

Can I leave now?
[opens and shuts door].

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"I am too loud"
"I am too dramatic"
"the drama"
"the passion"
"the loose cannon"

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I decided to be me today. I decided to let go of that past and all things that came with it. I decided that it was okay to march to the beat of your own drum -- even if the path is a been more scenic. And truth be told, I am a sucker for the scenic paths. I love the pictures, I love the stories. I love looking back and seeing change -- and being able to admire that change. I am a bit different, I am a bit zany, eclectic/electric, hyper, loud and man it has it's cons.

But it also has it's advantages too.

I am growing, I am changing, I am blossoming and it's beautiful.

And I am so proud of myself for not apologizing,
for owning my decisions,
and letting go of what needed to be let go.

Love,
@Laurabell