Don't need your help any longer, iam still dying; so whats the point

6th July 20:30 pm, saw my Christian friend today, as i had asked for help sometime ago; after seeing him on 5 different occasions, as i had previously told him; i had been with God, in his light in a very special way, a story for later; however, the issue was and still is, as i told my friend, how come He doesn't heal me, i believe beyond doubt; of cause i do, i was with Him. So is it not possible, that my time is up, and i am supposed to go home (die) i mean what about 'just type Priests died from cancer on google and see what comes up' so they believed, why didn't God heal them? I am dying, i am reminded all the time, i'm never ever not in pain, bad pain, my pain meds. include morphine, i'm loosing wait; look i struggle with ever movement, from the tips of my fingers to my toes, and yes typing is very difficult and my wrist gets the pain. I'm trying to explain to you, the reader, my state of 'physical being ' in the hope, that what i write further will make sense, okay tired, and getting to sore, so till the morn; and my story starts in essence, iamstephen