Like really, no one likes it when I am emotional. I really look like a guy that is going to commit suicide when that happens even though I never thought of doing so. The entire group is like super worried and they don't know what to do (although I am very fine at some deep thoughts of mine). Later on I just say that I'm going out for some air, told them to only do the "Facts" part of the footballer and didn't come back to them for the night.

I think going out for some air is an excellent choice in this situation. Sometimes, especially when it's a group thing, and the attention seems to be focused on yourself, you just need to get away for a minute to compose yourself.

Late at night I gave that guy an email. A 1k word email that explained every single thing in my mind, what I thought of, and whatever I feel like throwing in. Next day, he said that he read the thing and is okay with everything with it. The entire project went on smoothly since then.

You have a deep intellectual processing mind. Indeed this might actually be a better way for you to express how you feel to people. I can also relate. In a perfect world for me, I would tell someone that I have an issue with, "I will send you an email later", and the individual would at least get a thorough representation of what is going on in my mind, for the good or bad...But we don't live in a perfect world, and this isn't always the optimum way to communicate. I think it would be better though, for minds like ours.

Sometimes there is really some need to slap someone real hard for them to realize that they are a little messed up...I actually admire people that can respond to insults like these.

@lilacse I don't know why, but this made me laugh a bit. I really understand, truly. Sometimes I want to slap people too, but it really does nothing to help their disposition, or your own. If anything it will just make them more of a bitter person towards pretty much everyone. As far as admiration is concerned, I too admire people who can stay calm, cool, and collected when confronting situations such as this. I am not good at it by any means. As well as I handled it, there is still much room for improvement. Especially with my physical response of becoming adrenaline pumped and ready to pounce.

If I am there I would either stay quiet and go the super sadistic way of responding or just push him to the wall if it goes a little too overboard for me to handle.

HAAA! We are alot alike I think @lilacse. I feel like my mind just works way slower than most people's. It's sometimes very difficult for me to have a "real time" debate on any topic, unless I am paired with the perfect individual who likes to delve deep into discussion at a slow pace. When the conversation is moving too fast, in a direction I don't like, and can't seem to quickly defend myself, I get real pissed off, and experience the same sadistic, "I'm gonna kill you" feeling. For me, it's totally normal, but it's something I know I need to work on, and if you have the same issue, you may need to as well if you find it to be any type of hindrance in your life.

Just saying, but I enjoy life stories like these...always remind me of stuff around me. Probably my memory is still working normally :P

I really enjoyed your comment man. It's always a pleasure to get some feedback on my rants. You really never truly know what to expect on my blog LOL. Anyway's I am sure I will probably catch you in discord later.

Much love
@futuremind