Sorry for your loss man.Sadly I know that feeling very well.The only thing that will heal this wound is time.It takes a lot of time to "fully recover" after losing important person who was part of your life.I wish you luck and if I can give you advise just don't blame yourself.I was blaming myself after the loss for a very long time till I understood that I couldn't know erenow and there is no real reason to blame myself.That's just life.Just take your time and keep up your great work since you are one of the "reasons" this platform is so great.I will patiently wait for your next article.Hold on @simoxenham