Just say yes to life // receive the blessings
Everything you'll ever need is already right here. Are you prepared to receive it?
This comes to mind regularly, but I really first begun to test it out when I decided I wanted to go through with a dream of going on a bicycle journey by my self. I was working in a place and position I loved; a head chef in a vegan, raw-food cafe, I had an amazing group of friends and a thriving yoga practice. Feeling fantastic, and still dissatisfied. I knew I could find community everywhere, and so that was not enough of a reason to stay in a concrete-world that I knew was not My Way. Even the most comfortable and fulfilling lives have some element of dis-ease. What part of my life is so inauthentic that I can't bear it any longer?
I didn't uproot and leave home because I was on this epic search for my self, and this wasn't me trying to run away from my life, as some had questioned me. This was me running towards something far greater, a seeking of a truth that I believe has inspired many people to take a leap. The truth that the universe is forever aspiring for us to propel forward in the becoming, or the revealing, of our authentic self.
I had to trust that. I had to trust that my agitation was not just something I had to heal by accepting it, but that it was actually my soul spurring me to take action.
Bicycling away from home with a tent, a change of clothes, and a bit of money is an exhilarating feeling. I was also terrified. What was I getting myself into, and why? How could I do this alone?
I started out on a ferry from Vancouver Island to Port Angeles, WA, and from there I just started pedaling. As you might imagine, all you have is time when you're on a bicycle. To think, to generate ideas, to get so, so quiet to the world around you, to really see and feel the changing ecosystems and weather patterns. Every hill and mountain, a symbolic message that there truly is a peak, that no feeling lasts forever. The mental, emotional, and physical challenge of pushing through the discomfort of the uphill, not without the strength, relief, and rewards of the downhill. The joys of a bicycle ride is for another post though :)
I was traveling alone, but by no means did I do it alone. No one has to do it alone, because the number of human beings that want to be a part of your journey, your life, who want to see you succeed, is incredible. Heartbreaking-wide-open incredible. In my case, they were offering food, lodging, money, conversation, hugs, and all kinds of opportunities to someone they'd just met, and who they may never meet again. For someone who is rather introverted, and had a history of social anxiety and fear of rejection, it took every ounce of courage for me to say Yes to people.
There are countless stories of people walking out there front door with nill and who have been totally provided for. Some see this as an epic test of faith, and others a way to 'mooch' off other people. Understandably, as we have been programmed to believe that needing and asking for help as an utterly undesirable behaviour. This programming has been so strong in many of us, that we refuse others when someone has offered to provide something for us through no asking of our own. I'm talking some of our basic needs. Companionship, nourishment, connection, hospitality. Even avoiding someone's eyes that we pass on the street is a form of denial.
Giving is one of the greatest symbols of love, I don't know of anyone who doesn't feel amazing when they've been given the opportunity to give, to be generous to another.
Receiving the blessings from another is YOU giving the gift of giving! It's not mooching, it's not because you're a failure, or you're lesser-than. It's because you're a human being that deserves all of the love and recognition for just being here.
Stop denying yourself and others the bounty of love, for it absolutely does increase tenfold when you just say yes.
So on this gorgeous solstice day, I ask you;
Just say yes to life. Just say yes!!
Ah a huge smile came across my face as I read this! As I too am another woman who said Yes! to life and that urge to Go Forth in Trust and going with the flow of life... on a solo bike trip! Haha, i started in LA, and went up north and ultimately crossed over from Washington into Vancouver Island (and just wrote a post about it this morning! Hilarious and Awesome!). Beautiful Reminder! ~~ <3 wren
So awesome to meet you Wren! I love, love, love meeting other cycle-travelers, especially solo-womben :) And now, to go and peep your post ... :3
You write so beautifully! This really moved me. We've been conditioned to think that we are material beings who learnt how to think, but what if we were also thoughts that learnt how to materialize? This gives me so much hope that the Universe will provide, if only I'm open to accepting it. I'm glad you found the courage to make this journey and share it with us. Thank you for this bit of positivism and hope!
Thoughts learning to materialize, YES. I love that. It's incredibly empowering to find this truth, that life is an inner movement that extends outward, and ultimately determines how we view and participate in the world around us. Changing our thoughts about ourselves and realizing the core essence of what moves the soul and then organizing that in the outer world, the possibilities of change and manifestation open to not just ourselves, but everyone else. Thank you so much for introducing yourself, I LOVE reading your blog so far!
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I love the concept of running toward something rather than running away from something. This is a beautiful story. I come from a family of distance cyclers so I understand the sense of open wide space in that journey.
I just finished reading your intro. Heart-wrenching and so, so brave. My sister is my best friend, and so I can only imagine what your journey has been like since. I suppose I will have to read the rest of your entries to find out. solo-traveling for the win! Hope you don't mind if I follow you around for a bit ... ;)
Thank you. I've written a reintroduction and wasn't sure about posting it. Your kind words are leaning me toward posting.
Yes yes yes! I think a periodic introduction is important, we are always changing in some degree after all. I imagine your travels have shaped you in a way that you yourself may not be aware of until you write it down. I've read a few of your posts, you really do have a magnificent eye. Looking forward to reading your reintroduction.
Thumbs up for starting in washington! Im curius did you plan on how long you stayed in a place or did you just go with the flow? And happy solstice!
Are you in WA? On that trip I was quite forward-thinking, usually cycling about 80 miles a day, and taking rest wherever I was tired. When I made it to northern California, I ended up staying there for months. Going with the flow on a bike trip is so important, because really you're not able to get anywhere too fast, so having a schedule can add unnecessary pressure to accomplish distances. I was totally open-ended, so lots of wiggle room to follow my bliss.
Your writing is so beautiful. I enjoy reading it so much. :-)
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I love your storey and I can relate. At age 59 and 60 my husband and I sold our large suburban home in Toronto, gave away and sold a lot of things and moved 1800 kms away to a rural community on the East Coast. Directly on the Atlantic and partially off grid. We both took an early retirement. We left behind many friends and family and both gave up our careers. It was scary and someone said to me.."you take yourself with you where ever you go, are you running from yourself?." The answer was no. We were running towards something new. In the 3 years we have been there we have discovered a more spiritual life, a more peaceful and content one. Less material objects. We have hiked, biked, ran and driven from one end of the province to the other. Life has become rich. We have learned so much about ourselves and each other. We have met many new like minded people. Homesteaders, artists, sailors, runners, and off grid people interested in a better environment. I love your storey and I have resteemed it. God Bless You.