You have a big heart Sandrina. One day you will find a man who wants to share his whole life with you, and raise you up not drag you down. Let this be a lesson for the future. Others have said it better before me so I have up voted them.
Rather then offer more advice I leave you this.
Thanks! Really! I am receiving a lot of support from the steemit family <3
I am feeling incredibly ashamed by this entire situation.
Now time to get rid of the dirt in my life.