Now he is out somewhere on meth and I don't feel loved.
Sigh....and when is time to love yourself? :) I know it sounds like cheesy bullshit....but thats how we are. This are our patterns.
You can go two ways. Accept him as he is. You knew from the start more or less. Or....dont and move on.
In time you realise that every person comes to you with baggage. Some ppl have it more, some less. Cancer etc is one thing...transmited disease is smth that will constantly worry you. Smth over your shoulder 24/7. Again...do you not love yourself?
When u start ... ull break the pattern and maybe next time pick differently.
I know. It is time to love myself, I am just so angry that I feel in love with the wrong person.
I have tried to accept him with his desease, but I don't think I can accept him taking meth, even just once a month. Now it is hard for me to force myself to push him out of my place and break all the bridges.