Hello @jibspark, at the beginning I would like to thank you. Because I know that it is not so easy to open yourself, look inside yourself and share what you found with someone else. I am also after a difficult times in my life, among others it is depression, and I hope that I am starting to get out of it, though it is not easy, and sometimes I feel like I'm falling apart...
After reading your post I feel a bit like after talking to a good friend, we have similar interests and thoughts. I also love music, and around it I want to build my future. Recently I discovered that I dream about a calmer, slower life, I am amazed by world, nature, art, photography, literature.. I have the impression that in the course of the last years I have lost many of this fascinating things, although I certainly have many nice memories from that period.
What will happen in five years? I am not planning so far, but I hope that I will find myself and work out a life in which I will feel good and fulfilled.
I wish you that too! I'll keep my fingers crossed for you! Go on! 🌷