"The white man here is the man of Aryan sex, the superior man..."
So you're an avowed white supremacist. Really pathetic.
You don't have any real accomplishments of your own, so you cling to your ethnic identity for meaning. Then in secret you watch cuck porn, and you're jealous of the black dick.
I truly hope you can find real meaning in life, and come to terms with your penis size.
Here's a video on the penis envy thing:
https://www.atheismisunstoppable.com/video_post/fan-with-tj-kirk-syndrome-seeks-advice/
Really, I sympathize. When I was growing up, I was worried mine would be too small. I guess just try to realize that the penis is mainly for your pleasure anyway. Most women can't orgasm from the penis only. Even if they could, maybe size wouldn't be a huge factor.
Also, try dating Asian women.