you have great spirit and please continue making art because your art is wonderful :D I don't see painting with color is bad for you tho,because nothing is wrong in art world. .. even wrong color can make deep impact into someones heart :D

yes I thought paper can be easily break when oil paint is applied on it,but i wonder how European artist can paint on their sketchbook, turns out they're using gesso :D you must try it bro :D

thank you for coming and reading this post :D