"Melancholy: black bile". Depression is more than being just sad.
Do you guys remember I said my art started from sadness?
I'm very lucky to say it's something that remains only as a memory now. Currently I feel like I'm living the best part of my life, and I've never been happier than I am today.
But some years ago I was diagnosed with something that felt like having cancer in my soul. Something that pictured the word "sad" as the best it could get.
There are feelings that are even worse than sadness. Depression is like a mutation of it. It's making sadness permanent, as solid as a rock that you're carrying on your shoulders since the very first time you open your eyes in the morning.
And in the afternoon as well. And also the evening.
But is not like a normal-size rock. This one I remember felt like the size of the whole sky.
Breathing was a curse.
Staying alive, one of the hardest things I've had to do.
But of course I'm so glad I could carry on after all. Years later I'm a living proof of the famous cliché phrase:
"It does get better".
If you, the person who is reading this, are having a tough time right now and feel hopeless about finding a way out, I can promise you it will be alright.
It will.
I've been there just like you. So please never give up. Sometimes it's hard to find reasons to not give in, but if you have at least one reason, no matter if it's as small as a firefly, hold on to it.
I did it during my rough times and now you got me painting smiley suns and stars that stare back at me.
That's why I wanted to share with you one of the many drawings I made when I was depressed.
This drawing started with a quick research about the history of depression. I found out that this illness is as old as the human race, and the ancient doctors called it "melancholy".
'Melancholy' as a word had its origin in the ancient Greek term "black bile".
There was so much information about this topic and my sad heart felt like drawing something out of it...
Happy yellow balloons. It didn't matter if they were there, I wasn't able to see them.
Depression is like seeing the world through black filtered glasses. And the worst part of it is that you can't just take them off.
(This is a quick sketch I made as a test before the actual illustration).
'Melancholy: black bile'. 2018
(All the pictures and artworks in this post belong to me)
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I'm so moved and so relieved you can talk about that sadness as only a memory right now. It does get better, it really does. I'm so happy you exist and the fact you were able to share this piece of work with us here on Steemit really means a lot and takes much courage. Talented and capable of anything, as always. Love you kiddo, keep on creating and mastering ways to bring emotion into image with your bare hands.
Your comments are always so honest and beautiful, they always make me smile and encourage me to keep making art. Maybe I don't reply to all of them, but that's because you never fail to leave me speechless. Thank you thank you thank you, for always being here.
In the middle of my silence there's a joyful heart appreciating your existence.
I know, my dearest. Love you, keep on creating and keep on existing ❤️
More than depression! Your expression is very strong
Thank youuuu!
Beautiful reflection the emotions, it is good when people are able to put it on canvas, some times you feel relief after that :)
Thank you so much!!! It totally is. Art is way of healing, they say :)
Art in sadness it’s a brilliant piece
Thank you very much! @brittandjosie It's my pleasure to share my work with all of you. Thank you for the support :)
Very emotional post, thank you to share.