Watercolor selfportrait - CLOWN - My Artwork Pt16

I want to share one of my favourite watercolor's I've painted of myself in September 2014. I was deeply depressed in that time, and although I won't explain what I was pulling through, after completing the piece, and then looking at myself and back at the painting, I was somewhat disquieted by the strong resembling of the eyes of the two selves.

I felt sad, and the painting is called Clown.

I remember it was also a time I liked to write, and I had written a poem then which accompanied this illustration on my art page. Perhaps it sound's a bit silly and not very poetic, but I am an artist after all - not a poet. If you're interested:

i'm funny, i promise
i've just been going through a depressed fase…. for a very long time

i'm so sorry, i promise
to everyone i may have ever hurt; on facebook and not

it was never intentional, i promise
i was just always on the run to or from home

i'm kind, i promise
i have just been insecure for way too many years

i'm honest, i promise…
it is only to myself that i lie to

i love you, i promise.
i just really try hard to be honest

i'm so sick of lying, i swear
this doesn't even rhyme, i promise….

i know everyone's life has been hard, i promise…
let's all try to be honest…

i'm a little afraid, i promise
but i love you, i swear

Title: I'm merely a poet.