A Death at the Bloom

I start art at young age but I didn't do it continuously so I never become an artist but I still like to draw sometimes, specially when some idea come to my mind.
but I always want to finish it fast :D because I work somewhere and don't have enough time :(
so, I told myself , let's do this one slowly. and started this few weaks ago and finished today! but apperantly the result is same as my other works. not so happy about it.
But hope you guys don't mind it :D
and get some idea from it for your own works.
I call this lill piece of ... whateverness: "a death at the bloom"