Hey my dear Claire - I just returned from a vacation with the kids (and hardly any internet) and on catching up here on steemit, it is such a great feeling to read this latest post of yours!!!! haha, once again, feeling so much like you do - how familiar sounds the notion of having been a young lady just a minute ago and all of a sudden realizing the growing into this elder woman ;-) Letting go "the search" for anything opens the room for all the things we should be finding :-) Big Cheers to you!!! such a good feeling to be back online! Hugs and a great weekend for you and your loved ones!!!