The Last Dialogue

Night temperature was too cold to be felt, my own skin understood, and she began to whisper it all over my body. The air is very uncomfortable. Probably, sleeping is the only way, but I have no back, not even sleepiness. All this because of my increasingly unfamiliar feelings. Thinking of you, it always makes me be like this my love.

A week I've been through the nights without falling asleep, it's none other than my mind that is only on you. This matchmaking is at first like to kill me, my father is always stubborn, he said I must have the ideal wife, beautiful, soleha, and smart to cook he said. And indeed I see it is all in you my love. But, there is another purpose indeed from our matchmaking, that is business between my father and your father.

At first I never had a single bit of feelings for you, this marriage at first to me is only the fulfillment of our parents' desire, so I responded to you coldly, you assume only a human being fulfill my needs at night after I get home from work.

But as time went on, I felt something growing from inside me, I had a different feeling when I was in front of you. Your smile in the morning, when the morning is still a shadow of pseudonym in my eyes that only part open. Your joy in the daytime when suddenly came when I was tired of working with a lunch lunch that was able to remove my tall penat. Then a warm greeting in the afternoon when I just peddled my feet at home, you never forgot to kiss my hand, then hugged my short, limp body. And the affectionate kiss you give almost every night is very unforgettable. When our marriage has stepped on 8 months, I can only say that I love you my wife.

But who could have guessed, and who could have guessed, This feeling that was beginning to emerge and rapidly evolving within me was only able to tell you in a short time? This farewell was too abrupt, this farewell hit me to fall right in our wedding year.

My love, you have to know, the news of your accident reached my ear when I was in the jewelry store, by that time I just finished choosing which suitable ring to be on your finger man, to keep you company when I was not by your side, this ring will be the first prize which I will give you. But suddenly my handphone rang, it was from your father, your father does not usually call me. Feeling prejudiced, I heard your father crying and said one sentence I hate the most "your wife has died"

Tonight, I sat upright in front of your photograph, accompanied by the ring I just bought and the letter I just met tonight in a small shelf in our room. I do not know when you wrote this letter, and sometime you will give it to me my love, maybe tonight is the time, time for me and you to dialogue again, through a letter you write yourself

For, my beloved husband
Reza Anugerah Putera

My husband, whether there's a feeling, out of nowhere, suddenly I want to write this letter to you, Today is the day our wedding is even eight months, and indeed, this marriage may be hard enough for you, because I can feel your feelings to me, the way you behave to me, the way you look at me, I can feel my husband.

But you must know, I never hesitate to always be by your side of love, because getting someone I've craved forever is the most beautiful gift I've ever had. I still remember the first time I looked at your face, when my father's company's birthday celebration, of many parents, there was a man who looked my age as he walked up to my father, stretched out his hand and congratulated him. Then my father took you closer to me, and your first smile was always there in my reflection, "Reza Anugerah Putera, best regards Evira" that sentence I always record in my husband's memory.

Until finally comes a plan, my matchmaking with you. That day I became the happiest human being in the world. However, I also realize that you will not be too fond of this plan. And I feel there's a bit of compulsion when you approve of the matchmaking plan.

I also know that you are the man I always crave, do not have feelings of love for me. But all that does not make me discouraged, because this feeling of love can still be delivered to you through my every action to you, even though you do not have the same feelings to me.

I'm glad you've recently started to change, your cold behavior has warmed up, no more visible faces in front of me, my smile always decorate the times when I was beside you and the most make me happy is, this morning you are not as usual, before go to work you mine me tight and say "i love you"

And my love, today I decide, the purpose of my life is to be by your side, to accompany you to the end of my life.