Lonely Day

I have been distancing myself from all of my friends. They are pot smokers. I don't find smoking pot that bad thing, but because I can't smoke it I don't feel good to be around them. If I could be a pot smoker I could enjoy their company, but instead I can't.

Why can't I smoke pot. It makes me have a mental break down. I need to find people who don't do drugs, but those people are successful and want nothing to do with me.

Another reason why I am lonely is because I am a coward. I need to take initiative and go meet people by driving to their place. Thinking once I get a job I will have a little more freedom to travel. What would having a job allow me to do.

1. I will meet people at work, so I will be able to make friends that way.
2. I will be able to get pocket money, so I can spend more money on gas.
3. I will be of higher social status. Class status so I will be more confident.
4. I will be able to learn valuable skills that would better my future career prospects.
   and maybe many more benefits of working.

Right now what is the problem. Right now I don't have any sense of direction. I am to busy playing World of Warcraft because I lack sense of direction. Main thing work will give me is a sense of direction, or something to work towards. I try programming web development, but I suck at that so I quit. I try drawing, but I suck at that so I quit, I try writing novels, but I suck at that so I quit. I try so many things and I suck at everything. Even WoW I suck at it and feel like quitting. But does quitting all these things matter. Just do what you suck at and continue to suck at it.

Improve after failure upon failure. Just gotta keep grinding. Keep grinding folks.