I'm praying for your strength and courage! A few years down the road, some hard situations in life and you will remember that and what it felt like. And you will forever wage war against yourself in your mind. Which is why it is important to write this and be able to reflect on where you were and who you are. And that you can rise above the deep pit you feel sunken into. You will also hopefully touch many more lives and have lofty goals and a long list of reasons to live. Because. Because counts as a reason. Big hugs for not really tossing your family upside down! Be strong!