Thoughts on American Crime Story Season 2

Andrew's story is a clear indication of how you've been raised by your parents shapes the way see the world and yourself in it. The fact that he said to himself "I will never be like my father" many times and he had become one, in fact much more brutal version of him proves that we are not what we think we are, we are the products of what we had been exposed since from the get go. More or so like on the nature vs nurture debate. He is clearly low on empathy and the fact that he is the children of two dysfunctional human being and had been raised by chronic liar father who put him on a pedestal, and a mother whose role has been an enabler of abuse and her default mode to abuse is 'denial'. This dynamic becomes his default mode to sense of slight rejection which is an indication of emotional dysregulation like it has been seen in all Cluster B personality disorders and PTSD. He thinks he is the most generous person in the world, but he exploits the people around him. He thinks he is entitled to be treated as 'special' but he lacks the belief that he is one, as a result of inconsistent behavior that he had been raised by his parents. This is why, 'emotional stability' must be one of the very important assets to become a parent in the future, in my opinion but that is up for a debate for the freedom of choice purposes. How much do we get to control the future generations and how much 'freedom' we are obligated to provided by authority figures is an interesting question to be answered, in my mind. Back to the topic however, all I've learned from this season is how Donatella Versace is boring af, her insecurity is the foundation of sensible world that has been shown to us as it is the 'ultimate goal' to achieve in life. The truth is though, maybe it's just me, maybe it's just the way things are nowadays, the only way to live right your life is the way you choose it to be. You are your own audience and actor. Albeit, it is a process which we all are living, and learning it to make day by day...

This season was filled with boring lines, beautiful shots and even though the story was broken into pieces and was a bit hard to follow, in the end it was obvious that killers and victims are created. If I were in the killer's shoes, I doubt that I would become a spree killer but I would most definitely develop Complex PTSD from lack of consistent love and attention from my parents; instead of being gaslighted, lied, invalidated and brain washed... Though I am genetically more prone to be the freeze/flight victim than a fight/fawn borderline or an antisocial sociopath. I've seen many people whose gone to that direction. It's your genetics and the environment plays a huge role in your development.

The things you liked as a kid, you'll still keep liking it, until the end of your life. Just pay attention to it. The beauty is, it doesn't have to be a 'set' way of life. Change is up to you. Neuroplasticity promises incredible recovery hopes. It's all a matter of what you choose. To get to that point however is a mystery. Not scientifically, but everyone finds their own way to make their own game... And that is a beautiful experience. A little bit of 'will', luck, effort and time & repetition can bring miracles... Let's not go that far... Worth watching but I am more excited to see "The Man In The High Castle"s latest season...