A song in my heart Part 3

Time come that Ravan will leave the game because of his work he need focus to it and I’m sad about it. And it’s my bad day I can’t chat him much because I was busy in my little business. And it was touching that he did wait for me to be online and chat this way “Hey I was waiting for you to get online I am on my way to work and I can’t even get online even in my messenger now bestie I will really miss you.” And I reply to him “You do really wait for me? Bestie Just promise me don’t die!” And he replied “I am near to airport now and my boss is in there. Don’t worry I will not die please wait for me and don’t change name in your account if you change it is impossible for me to find you I love you bestie.” and I reply to him “ I love you too bestie.” And I feel sad about it knowing that if he will gone too long I will forget about him and move in the next chapter of my life.
After that bloody break up I become hateful to my ex. And I never talk to him I will just chat just saying hi and hello or I will just chat him please find someone that is better than me and almost every day he will come in here crying saying “ I am begging you come back to me.” And I did tell him “I really tired of you please let go of me.” And I cry in front of him. And I am thinking if I come back to you I will become more frustrated. And he said to me “hey you want me to find a Job right? That’s all you want?” and I reply to him “Yes, but now do it for your family and yourself look at your life you are really poor help yourself to get out in poverty I am done with my part now I did send you to college and all I ever wanted is to see you successful in the future.” And he reply “No I can’t do it without you please Clear I do really love you don’t leave me.” And he kneel in front of me “Just find someone better than me I can’t go on this way you never listen to me all I ever wanted is to let you find a job so that you can have better life.” That’s what I did tell him but he reply this way “I will find a job I promise just don’t leave me I don’t know what to do if you will gone.” Then I replied to him “How many times you did tell me that? But you never do it you just happy with your friends and never think about the future just let me go and start a new life.”
But he keep visit me in the shop and we got a big fight in the shop and he will commit suicide he get a knife and he will end up his life. And I tried to get away the knife from him and said to him give me that so I tried and I tried till he accidentally push me and I got bruises in my right arms and he said I’m sorry and he did cam down because he see me that I was hurt and I just cry in front of him and tell him “If you will commit suicide what will happen to your soul where it will go in hell you want that way?” and he reply “it’s really hurt I don’t know what to do how this pain will go away.” Then I reply “Hey, if you will go to hell there’s much pain in there you want it?” and he hug me and said “I am sorry for what I did I do hurt you physically and emotionally” and I tell him “Will it’s okay, I’m still alive just don’t think stupid things okay?” And he asked “Will you come back to me give me another chance, I will find a better job for us and start a new life” and I reply to him “I’m sorry I can’t trust you, I get hurt much from you because of that promises are made to be broken.”
After that incident I am just trying to leave a normal life but I know someone is talking in my back about me so it bothers me that much and every time my ex boyfriend visit me I will ask him they talk about me do they?” and he reply “No, they don’t” and I tell him “will they know that you still love me so they will not let you hear about it but it’s okay.” After that conversation he did come home
As usual we do call and chats by Walker and just to tease him saying “I want to see what you look like in the video call let me see you.” And he said “I don’t have camera” and then I said “oh come on just do it “and he said okay I will” and I open my camera just to let him see me and I’m so excited to see this guy but my excitement turn into pieces I just saw moving boxes in my screen and I did tell him “hey why you do that? I want to see you not this boxes.” And he said “If I do that my costumer will tease me I am at work” and I said “you are so unfair” and he said “and actually I never do video call I am so shy to do it” and I laugh about it and said “hey, video call won’t kill you just do it” but he don’t want to do it.
But we know each other more and more I did really see him in video call. My first impression is I though he is so handsome will as I saw his profile picture he is handsome in there then in the live video call he is ugly and I said to myself will at least he got a face. And I did laugh and said to him “You’re ugly! I’m telling the truth” and he fight back “and you are not beautiful either and you sound like a rat!” and I said “Will at least guys are dying for me” and I laugh. But as I look at him even more “he is handsome I just can’t tell him that he is handsome.