I absolutely love your wording, "I laugh more than before because it hurts more than before." My goodness the painful sediment that carries. It is truth. I propose in fact that is how we stay Golden. Humor. It is a sad but also a beautiful truth. Those who scream at the sky and then possess the ability to turn a scream into a sigh......
You are an amazing father. Anyone can parade around and curse. How many turn negative into an even worse negative? How many possess the ability to turn their pain into truth? Everyone cries for the maiden who screams at God in the field because she has lost a son. But they marvel at the maiden who lost one as well.... and yet, she is a vessel through which love runs. "How does she even smile?" Pain is power and people marvel at those who can continue walking although their legs have been broken. Why? It gives them hope. It hurts so badly because of the hole. And in saying this I wish I could look you in your eyes and you could hear the passion of these words in my voice. The father is as important as the mother. I believe these words you write these beautiful posts....They are a staple. And the beautiful thing is.... they're chiseled into the rock of the Earth. Every day is a new day . One day you will be reunited with the legend you helped birth. And never will he doubt the love that surrounds him. And the compliment you gave me? One of the best I've ever received.