10/24/18

Something feels a bit off. I can’t tell what it is though. I feel like something is missing. I try to keep pushing, keep smiling. Keep on keeping on, I guess. But there is this emptiness, an aching in my soul. It’s hard to wake, harder to sleep. Hard to breath, hard to laugh. It’s just hard. I try to force happiness. I put on a good show (most days). But I feel myself sinking deeper into something that I don’t understand. Do I miss you? All of you? Pieces of you? All the things that I thought you were? Maybe it’s not you at all. Maybe it’s just an exhausting ache for something I don’t think I’ve ever known. Something pure, and natural with nothing in the way. Something with the right timing, and the right head space. And… whatever… maybe it’s just me.