What will be will be, what will come will come!
The sun is rising slowly, I haven't slept yet, and I am heading home with a complicated feeling...many things haven't finished yet, but another day has started, and I need to be ready.
My kid had not woken up yet, it was time to prepare their breakfast for school and get busy with the kitchen staff. My wife was a bit confused and asked me what I did for the whole night and did not come home. I tried to explain the situation what I did during the night and why I did it.
Kitchen things were done and my kids were ready for school, I started the motorbike dropped both Attura and Aya at their school, and went to the coffee shop with Fatiya, I could not sleep without a weird dream lately, the dream about death (Sorry I could not tell you about this). I haven't slept for about 48 hours, this is very torturous and exhausting.
What I need is to maintain my peaceful mind and not force myself too much, I am still trying to do it and calm down (close the channels) for things beyond my reach.
Things always happen for a reason, and so this is. I enjoy the coffee shop and watch Donald Duck's cartoon with Fatiya while enjoying my cup of coffee and cakes that Fatiya loves as well.
My wife called and asked me to buy something for cooking lunch because we have nothing at home to cook. Fatiya and I went home after buying things and I helped bathing Fatiya.
Again, I tried to figure out what was wrong with me lately, but I could not at all. Reading is my favorite to do when I need to kill spare time, I did so that time as well. Walking a bit around the garden and I wish I could sleep for a little while leaving the phone and enjoy the greens around. I walked through the old paths I hadn't been on for a long while. Try to find out what comes to my head in this recent time. I feel scared and lonely so often lately, dreaming similar things and most of them come to reality. I did not expect it to happen.
I was enough walking and went back home to take a shower and tried to sleep for a while. It took time and finally felt sleepy. As I fear to; a similar dream come over again! I woke up but did not move from the bed and meditated for a little while to rest my body and soul (it seems part of my soul somewhere is in trouble).
What to do next. I have not found any clues about it, but I need to do something to chase away the impurity of my mind and keep focus on the thing I am at. Time passed by and my kid was already out of the class by that time so I prepared to pick them up.
Arriving home and getting lunch, I walk out without bringing my phone and try to contemplate what did I wrong in recent days. I walked through the bushes and enjoyed my little time since my eyes could not be closed in the slightest. I stand by the riverside looking deeply into the yellow stream flowing peacefully with a wish I could find the clue, but eventually not.
Brought back my tired body and mind, closed my ears, and went to the sleeping room again to try to rest. Woke up, took my laptop, and connected to the internet through a mobile device to upvote some posts again. I know I will mess things up if I keep doing it without resting. Let it go....let it go then....
I closed my eyes, and my ears, felt the wind blowing through the window and felt the energy around me, detected the positive one and finally, I slept till the evening.
I washed myself, did not change my clothes, and took the motorbike key heading to Panton because I needed to shave. I went to my friend's barbershop. He is a friend of mine, and we have the same name, but our age is about 5 years different. We chatted while he started to shave me well. He has a chair in the small rental shop with his friends, there are 4 chairs in the shop, and only one is empty because the owner is not there at the moment.
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I sat there and chatted with him for a little while before I went to the coffee shop to finalize what needed to be done and put aside the things annoying me these days. I am sure the time will come and prove what is going on. Time will answer and it is about to come. Congratulations to you then, when it comes, I don't have the power to avoid it anyway!
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Tidak bagus begadang buat kesehatan bg, apa lagi abg sudah menunda tidur nya sampai 48 jam, makanya abg bermimpi butuk terus karna istirahat yang sangat- sangat kurang badan lelah mimpi yang tidak-tidak bg.
This is what we do with dreams... Keep a dream diary. Tell yourself to wake up after every dream and write down what you remember write with pen not laptop and if possible in the dark.
You do not have one dream but a series of dreams and there's no need to be scared.
Next morning you read your notes (keywords are fine) and see if they have something in common and what those keywords mean to you or stand for. If you can't figure it out there are dream word dictionaries.
A dream is always a message even if it says yiu should take a break and the time at day to thinkover and digest all experiences.
If not it will hunt younand there's no healthy body with a screwed up mind.
Memory lane is good for something.
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