Original Story: The story behind a call that shouldn't have been

Her name is Sara, and yesterday I dialed her and left her a message, but I shouldn't have. We met a long time ago, through the internet, in a chat from before, when the Windows messanger still existed.

After several talks one day she asked me for my phone number and dialed me, and that's where our story really began. We both had long-distance relationships, and despite wanting to be true to them, we quickly went from friends to confidants and then to something else.

It started as a game. At first it was curiosity more than anything else. We both had unmet needs and we thought we could help each other with that as the objects of our desire were far away. We never saw each other in person, it was against the rules, everything was virtual, through the phone first, through the screen later.

At first it was quiet, we used to get confused and mention the names of loved ones instead of our own, and we were fine with that, sometimes we didn't even notice. I think that to some extent gave us peace of mind, it made us feel that we were not deceiving them. But then the names started to mix and in the end only ours remained.

Little by little we were daring more, we were freeing ourselves, and soon we found ourselves doing things that we never thought we would do, and we were fine with that, it made us feel free, it made us feel complete.

Soon we began to need each other, to talk, to laugh, to cry, to give ourselves what we could not give to others, but over time that changed. What started as a game turned into something more, a challenge, a search for how far we could go, how far we could dare, and we were fine with that, it was exciting.

The only rule, not seeing us in person, started to be a problem. It was no longer enough to listen to each other, to look at each other, we needed more, and that's when everything began to change. I never gave in to her requests, so she started looking for ways to convince me, and she started looking in others for what I denied her, and at first we were fine with that, it was something new, and we enjoyed it more than we thought we would do it.

The boundaries began to become blurred and dangerously vague, and more than once I managed to stop her before she did anything she might regret. One day she confessed to me that she did all that to make me jealous, to get my attention. Another one out of nowhere told me that she loved me. Another day she thought she was pregnant and didn't know from whom. And for the first time we weren't okay with all of it, but we couldn't stop.

One day I called her almost too late, and we had a fight. Another day when I dialed her there was simply nothing to do. She had crossed the line, and she knew it. She confessed it to me, and even if she hadn't, I knew it from the tone of her voice. Again she told me that she loved me, and I replied coldly, "You spoiled it, there is no going back from this."

And so it was, after a long silence that seemed like years, only interrupted at times by her sobs, we said goodbye. We remain friends and confidants but nothing more. Then we stopped being confident. And in the end we saw that it was difficult for us to be friends.

Years of that have passed. She has called me several times to find out about me, and we have chatted like those who know they are standing before a potential fire and keeps their distance as a precaution.

Hundreds of times I have thought about calling her. There is something she gave me that I know no one else will ever be able to give me, and she knows that there is something of her that no one can reach more than me. That is clear to us, and that is why, despite everything, we have not picked up where we left off. It's too dangerous.

Her name is Sara, and yesterday for the first time since that, I dialed her, although I shouldn't have. We met a long time ago, through the internet, in a chat from before, when the Windows messanger still existed, and I hope for our own good, that she does not call me back.

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