These are really special. Sparse and simultaneously dense at the same time. like a fractal, it lies between dimensions, cool :) Inspiration comes and goes. Practice and pushing through is valuable though, like someone learning an instrument. Its good to mix it up though, take a break from the norm maybe dont take it so seriously, its the pressure thats killing ya! I think you used this exercise to really express your emotions, these feel very authentic. As long as you always have that as an artist, you will always thank yourself later, even if it felt like a chore.

What you are feeling is totally valid though, there is a very real effect that money can have on you as an artist. I know people who do entirely exclude money from art, it is a thing for sure, and a nobel one. Learning to support yourself as an independent artist with your own personal art can also be very freeing, personally i think its a worthwhile pursuit. This is one of the most beautiful things about steem, not what it is or will be, but what it represents as future possibilities for our culture. Now im blabbering. I wont tell you to keep it up, Do what you want! Its always good to reflect on where you want to go in the future though, and what it will take to get there.