I suggest you try and help yourself to keep your mind busy all the time and find something new that might take you to atleast forget what you're going through every time it happens.
I know it cost too much to have yourself checked with a professional but please do see a doctor if you feel like you need to. It will help.
Anyway, feel free to contact me if you feel like no one's gonna listen to you.
Thank you. I really appreciate it. I'll be adding you to my depression hotline list then. 😅
No problem, just let me know lang if you need help and I'll try my best as much as possible.